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3) The urge to be and to feel in intimate contact with, color, glitter, softness and perfume... This is a rebellion of the senses...Our society condemns as "Unmanly" a man's love for self- decoration... the plumes, necklaces, bracelets paints, satins and perfumes that once were within his reach, are now forbidden to him by custom. Personally I feel terribly depressed when I am forced to enter a store that sells men's clothing. I actually feel as if I were entering a cemetery. Nothing but dull drabness ...the deadly monotony of the tombstones symbol- ized in the greys, blacks and predominantly dark colors, and all this, while my inner "eyes" are thirsty for prints, vivid colors, variety and more variety in styles and materials. can spend hours just browsing in a jewelry store...actually drinking in the beauty of stones...angry, at not being allowed to wear them as I please. Only by assuming the role of a girl will society allow me to satisy this craving.

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Less obvious to the onlooker, but quite strong in many TV's is the urge to divest himself of the rough, aggressive, coldly logical traits which his environment expects him to express and show day in and day out, whether he possess those qualities or not. To dress up is to take a holiday from these pressures and weights and a revel in being meek, passive, giddy, and e even weak. Only a TV knows how restful it is to do So. Only a TV can tell of the calm, peace, that descends upon one's soul (oops! I meant "psyche")...or the contentment imparted to one' s nervous system. Many non-TV's are frankly astounded at what they call "the change" that comes over the TV when he dresses. What they refer to is the new sparkle that gleams in the TV's eyes, the sense of freedom, of

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